I feel really satisfied with myself...kind of. I made a plan for these holidays to be devoted to art, and I've done just that. Normally I don't live up to my promises but this time it was different. I've completed a lot of things, done some sketches and even done some anatomy and hand studies. It's interesting how a little promise can get you so far :)
But then again, a couple of sketches I've done I don't feel I did to justice. I kind of...screwed them up xD But they look alright, I suppose. So long as I do something artistic I'll be happy.
Speaking of, I should get onto doing that digital piece...
Ahem, anyway, I think the holidays have gone pretty well so far :) But I just wished I wrote more! I've stopped. Abruptly. Annoyingly abruptly. And I also wish the sun would come out. It's been cloudy for far too long.
Daddy's here with lunch, must dash!
- Location:On Mt. Everest
- Mood:
hungry - Music:Walking on the Moon - The Police
Is that possible? Oh who cares.
Okay, ummm, I'm procrastinating again. I'm meant to be finishing off a photography assignment but instead I'm surfing blog sites and such. And I'm also wondering if I could draw soon. Shiiit man. I don't know how I can't muster up the energy to finish it when it's nearly finished anyway.
I just really want some more time for art, you know? Because I can't force myself to do it when I have the time. Sometimes, I really have to be in the mood. Right now, when I have time, I'm not. So, wtf?
In other news, I dyed my hair a black cherry colour. It reflects the light and I think it might blind people... :|
Also, today I went to my best friend's party - ice skating, if you will. 'Twas fun, but now I have a huge blister on my foot and it hurts. Gahhh.
I have to draw something for art and finish an English assignment. I reallllyyy can't be bothered *whines
OH THE HUMANITY.
- Location:in your computer, messin with your circuits
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Fool to Cry - Rolling Stones
I've been on a four-day weekend (today's the third day) and I think I've completely wasted the whole lot. Besides going out on Friday night, I've felt crap on Friday and Saturday. Because I got a cold. Today is the only day where I dare venture out of the house and scoot off to Fremantle. For a Photography assignment.
Yesterday there was a huge thunderstorm that scared the crap out of me. The thunderclaps were so loud; the lightning lit up the entire backyard. The guinea pig outside got scared, so we had to bring her in. The rain was pelting down as if it were hailing! Scary stuff. I was frightened of putting the radio on. Can antennae work as lightning conductors?
On Monday, I have to study for exams, and start the theory work for Photography. I've got so much to do! As well as school work, I've still gotta finish a drawing. It's nearly done. If I work on it for about an hour and a half today, then it should be completed. I will upload it here
Oh, and, how do you guys feel about Angie Bowie? I think she's an evil bloodsucker.
- Location:Nowhere I want to be
- Mood:
restless - Music:Vultures - Cocoon
Tomorrow, we have half a day off from school due to parent/teacher interviews. Apparently it is required that the students accompany their parents, so the whole year gets to finish early.
Whoopee!
But, sadly, this is the only thing I can anticipate with a smile on my face. After that, nothing.
Do you know how sad that is?
I feel like I'm just coursing through a daydream with a lot of dodgy corners. It feels strange. Normally I'd be stressed in this situation, but I'm not. I feel loose, and complacent. Odd feeling.
Anyway, I really need to get going on this birthday present I'm drawing for a friend, as well as try to keep up with the mountain-loads of homework I have to do. So, my 'fun time' is cut short. I'm also close to finishing a portrait of Nico I've put together, so eh. I guess I can't complain.
Maybe life's pretty good at the moment.
- Mood:
complacent - Music:Love My Way - Psychedelic Furs
Now I'm not just using the journal to whine and complain, but I have to vent this.
School is a pain in the proverbial.
Next Tuesday I have a maths test, and the week straight after that I have exams, which not only involves maths, but all the 'core' subjects. On top of that, I have an English assignment to complete and a Society and Environment assignment to start. Oh, and don't forget extra homework.
All these things require at least a little 'at home' work. And you know what? When students get home from school, they'd rather find a way to escape the perils of school by doing other things other than school work. My way to escape is through art. I have not been able to do that for such a long time that it's actually trying to kill me from inside out. Don't get me wrong, I don't feel depressed or anything, but I just wish I could do more than I'm doing now. I have a huge art to-do list to get through, and I want to do some things from it. But I can't, can I? School gets in the way. Study, homework, assignments, study, homework, assignments. I know it's going to get worse and that I should suck it in a little, but, well...
You know how it is.
What I'm really annoyed with though, are the expectations my school has for us. They want to push us, to be the top, and because me and my class are on a 'special program' for 'talented people', we're copping the worst of it. Other students get it easy. Except us. We're the ones the school relies on to keep up the school's reputation for the best in the state. Well guess what, principle?
FUCK YOU.
I couldn't give a damn whether the school is the top school or not. But, what I do care about is that they're using us like...like slaves. Some of the teachers in there aren't even that good. So, if they want to be called the best school in the state, stop pushing the students and start giving the teachers a good kick in the arse! They're the ones responsible for our education and it's not the student's fault if he or she fails! Good teachers make good results. If they test run that theory, I bet it would prove correct.
...
Ahem.
Yes. Just venting.
In other news, I managed to drag off a drawing of mine to school today as well. I drew in the morning before school started, and at lunch. It calmed me. I've decided I should do it more often, so um, that's a bonus for me.
*takes a deep breath
I think I'm done.
Adios.
- Mood:
blah - Music:Fragile - The Police
Sitting up late on Friday nights with the oldies radio stations playing and soothing your soul, whilst you stalk down Sting & The Police songs to download...
And all this right after a week of labour. Well, 4 days actually.
Right now, Men At Work are playing Land Down Under...I just heard the line about the Vegemite sandwich. It made me laugh.
I guess it all ends in contentment after much ado about nothing (i.e. worrying for no reason) and realising that these are the moments that count in life. Who cares that pressure gets to a lot of people, and therefore tries to make you pressured? It's your choice whether you want to be under pressure anyway (cookies if you pick up that pun).
Tomorrow morning I'm going to a friend's party, and afterwards I'm going to go to the library to look for some things for an English project, then I'm going to draw. Sunday shall happen as it comes.
Well, I feel content. Not sleepy, though, even if it is quite late (now Guns 'N' Roses are on). But I don't care. I feel brilliant; content.
Oh and uh, has anyone had really random cravings for 80s music? I've had one tonight. That's why I'm listening to the oldies. Ah the wonders of the past...
I really think I was born in the wrong decade.
Okay, back to La La Land I go.
- Mood:
content - Music:No idea!
I FINISHED THE BOWIE PORTRAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:):):):)
HERE HERE:
http://carrotxstuffing.deviantart.com/ar
FINALLY I CAN GET ONTO OTHER PROJECTS WOOOOOOOOOOOO.
- Location:IN A CAGE
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Eyes Without a Face - Billy Idol
Now, to finish that Bowie portrait...>.<
- Mood: relieved
I'm...not...home.
Apparently.
See, what happened was my mum had to be admitted to hospital because her chemo was causing her to have a high temperature. She's going to be in there overnight, and possibly the next night too.
Meanwhile, I'm at a foreign place on a laptop and using a crappy version of MSN, but I'm still worried sick for my mum.
I hope she's okay. I really do.
Oh and, there's also a cat on my bed. It won't move.
Uhh...yeah...
So um, I'll keep you posted with how this goes.
- Location:Mum's friend's house
- Mood:
awake
Well, right now I'm feebly attempting to write one of two draft essays for English, which are due in 2 days. I find I can't really concentrate. My mind is too noisy and preoccupied with other things I should be looking at - for example, studying for a mini maths test tomorrow, and preparing a German speech. I really think that no teacher understands what pressures us modern day students go through these days. We have much too many distractions - distractions they didn't have in their 'time'.
Ugh, well, depressing stuff aside, I've had a rapid increase in this art 'business' I call a passion.
Just the other day, my uncle (unexpectedly, might I add) bought me a professional SR camera - that is, mega-ultra-toomanyaddons!-film camera. It has a flash that attaches to it, a balancer for the camera (that sticks to the bottom), and a macro lense. Now, don't go all 'wow your uncle's nice', because really I haven't had the chance to get that close to him on family terms. Sure, I talk to him, but we're not best friends. I didn't think he'd buy me a camera with all this stuff to go with it. I didn't expect it of him at all! (So lyk, wtf?)
But there's also the fact that he's a photography nut.
Back when mum and him were living in Tasmania, he had a darkroom set up in the house, and photography was a passion and a hobby for him. Mum says he was really good at it too. So he'd be carrying this camera around and taking photos and developing them himself etc. It all comes clear as to why he bought me a camera, then. Just recently, at school I've been developing photos in a darkroom. Mum told him this.
I think he got over-excited.
So now, I have a film camera (which, including the add-ons, has taken up two plastic bags), and I don't know what to do with it. But something tells me we're going to be doing some 'niece-uncle' bonding in the near future.
Because you know what else? I have been requested to do a portrait of him in oil pastels, after he saw my Bowie portrait. The camera was (apparently) payment.
My first commission!...Kind of.
That's the good news. I'm getting my art on track (finally). Maybe I will do something huge with it; who knows. For all you Bowie-goers out there, I'm halfway done with the portrait of him that has been sitting on my desk since early January. I was scared to do his jaw. But it's nearly done...then I'll move onto his face.
I'll do it when I get some free time...if I get some free time.
I guess that pretty much wraps life up in a giant package with a big red bow right now. Oh, I nearly forgot - I have something along the lines of 3 tests next week, and an assignment due. What joy!
Ugh. I'll be glad when these last few days are over.
(PS: Does anyone know what that new movie with Bowie in it is called? I hear Josh Hartnett's in it too.)
- Mood: stressed
- Music:In This Life - Kaskade
After that, we came home at about 7, then had cake and coffee, and then they left. It was a pretty relaxing day, just doing nothing and staring out the window occasionally. There was a fresh sea breeze, so it smelt wonderful outside, and the air was so fresh and energising. It's good it wasn't hot as it sometimes is.
And right now, I'm just wondering if I should do a bit of drawing. I found it to be very therapeutic, because before I started drawing back at the house, I was really tense and achy. When I started drawing, I felt so much better. It's funny how you can release emotions through drawing...I don't think I realised that before.
Has anyone heard of a movie called Across The Universe? I highly recommend it. It was such a beautiful film. It's set in the late 1960's, America, when all the soldiers are going to war and the race revolution is starting to come about. The whole thing was a semi-musical, and it used only Beatles songs, lots of brilliant renditions. The teenagers those days...wow. They had so much freedom, and so much fun, despite what was going on, but I suppose that it was their way of escaping the horror around them. Characters feature a struggling artist, a wannabe-anti-war radical, and a promiscuous and uncontrollable brother, who is admitted off to the army under the conscription policy. Very heart-wrenching, and there are definitely some scenes worth analysing. Go watch it people! 'Tis brilliance.
I think I've done my ranting for the day. Happy Easter everyone!
- Location:Meowland
- Mood: content
- Music:The Mountain - PJ Harvey
Err...
This is gross...
- Mood:
distressed - Music:Hey Mr. Rain - The Velvet Underground
Why am I at home? Because I'm an idiot. Ehh, no one's gonna read this anyway so what's the poooiinnntt...
Doesn't stop me from feeling bad, though :(
- Location:On a chair
- Mood:Betrayed
- Music:Midnight Melodic (Chase The Blues) - Terranova
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